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Life Sucks, (Don't) Just Deal With It

  • Writer: Briana Sparks
    Briana Sparks
  • Feb 10, 2019
  • 2 min read

Updated: Mar 17, 2019



Every now and again, it seems like life becomes exceptionally awful. Like, God awful. Sure, traffic is always bad and it's not out-of-the-ordinary for our jobs to get on our nerves, but sometimes things get way too intense. It shows up in global politics with the horrors of humanity stealing the spotlight, national news with everyone being exposed for engaging in awful thing like blackface or hate crimes (seriously, we're only two months into 2019 and older white men in politics have already lost their damn minds), and also shows up in pop culture (I feel like I'm canceling someone every week for the stupidest reasons).


And that's just the beginning. Those are our shared experiences. By the time we get to dealing with our own issues, we're completely over the BS of life.


I have no problem being transparent with y'all. I, myself, am broke, underpaid, and in debt. This negatively affects my mental health (I was already struggling) and my physical health (already had a number of chronic conditions to begin with). So what do I get when I put them all together? A sickly, anxious, depressed black chick who can't afford to be any of these things; not in Chicago, not in the winter, not on my own. Needless to say, life really sucks for me right now and I wish I could drink, fight, or sleep it away like my good sis Solange once said.


It's weird though, that even at my lowest moments, I've managed to see new day after new day. Aside from spirituality or religion or my own doing, I thought that I'd been able to get through hard times by just dealing with it. I don't have much control over the things that make life awful, so I usually just grit and bear it. It wasn't until recently that I discovered that this wasn't the case at all. I do have control over more than I realize. I'm not just making it—I'm getting there by doing what I do best: existing as myself—quirks and eye rolls and corniness and all .


There's no other way that I feel I can exist in this world. When I'm up, my best self shines through. This doesn't suddenly vanish in moments when I'm down. When life sucks, I've begun to understand that I'm still the same me. I still love music and writing and watching my shows and snuggling with my cat. I still love my friends and family and Beyoncé and Rihanna. Oreos are still my thing, and laughing at the small stuff still make my days easier, even if that means laughing at myself (which isn't too hard because I'm a klutz). With this in mind, I've decided to do my best at being me, especially on days when it's hard to just be, and take it from there. It might even work for you; focusing on the things that make you you in order to get through. Admittedly, I don't technically have any proof that this works every single time. Things still go wrong and we come up short. All I know is there has not been one day of my life when I have not been me—even as I'm struggling and changing and growing—and I am still here, so that has to count for something.


 
 
 

1 commentaire


272.amartin
13 févr. 2019

Preach girl I definitely can relate! Thank you for been transparent! I really needed this. -Toni ✨

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